A love like mine

We’ve been here before—
Eying each other through Plexiglas.
I want to be close to you right now.
I can feel my feet drifting toward you.
I have no other choice but to follow.
The closer I get the more I feel it.
You made me feel needed.
I needed to know that I was wanted.
My lips moist from the anticipated reunion.
I’m not strong enough to turn you down.
I want to keep you around.
My body aches whenever I think of you and a single tear escapes.
I want to be embraced and feel that blissful numbing sensation as we escape through the high.
I have nothing without you.
I am nothing—that much is true.
The feel of you upon my lips as you slid down my body is as close to home as I’ll ever get.

One with the vampires

If just for a day I could be free to go on living and doing as I please—
No one to answer to, not even you.
If just for a day I could be numb—
No more emotions to ruin the little bit of happiness that I’ve conjured up and washed down with salt.
Coming to a halt as the light bulb goes off.
My humanity turned off and I’m free to roam the streets with less agony.
Immortality couldn’t be any greener if the idea had come to me in a dead sleep and crowned me queen of its very existence.
If just for a day the nothingness that I feel would heal—
Layer after thickened layer of ice would thaw, leaving no damages to my already bandaged heart;
Moving on wouldn’t be so hard.
If only for a day I wish not to feel pain.