Loveless suicide

To whomever this may concern,
Tonight I bring you my last entry.
I’ve grown too feeble and my heart too empty.
I stand here with it in my hands,
The sweet blade loving my skin as it opens me up and inside is my surprise.
Not a single drop of essence is shed, but the pain within me is all I have left.
It is mine and mine alone.
I’ve staked my claim and this is gold.
No one will notice; I will go undetected.
The blade reaches my chest and I take the plunge that is my death.
No one will come running.
I will not plead for help.
I’m free from myself as I shout “nevermore!” and black out.

Silence is deadly

Whenever I dream, that is the only time I feel at peace—
Sadly because I’m sleeping.
I don’t have a worry in the world except the worry of myself.
Nothing I do seems to be enough.
There is always another step.
If I could travel back in time I’d travel to the place where your path crossed mine.
If given the option to travel down the road where we crossed or to choose another path I’d ask nature to start me anew.
So much has happened and I’ve lost myself along the way.
So many tears of heartache
So many words erased but we left muddied along the way.
If I were to leave this world, I would not be missed.
Life would go on and the world would finally heal.
A few pills in my belly and I’ll go like a silent breeze.